Was the night of my life :) Hands down, I just want to say that I LOVE my friends. Especially the ones that I’ve met in college. They are MY type of people. I had a wonderful time yesterday. Although it wasn’t much, it was definitely a night to remember.

So yesterday I had work. Wasn’t really feeling it but I’ve managed to pull through. I worked from 2-6; short shift. Then, Maverick, bheb & I decided to eat/visit Kuya Jr’s work at El Burro :) Food was great, company was great my pina colada was on point :) Thanks Kuya. Finished eating around 7:50 then kuya Jr get’s off at 8:30 so Mav, Bheb & I decided to chill on Paul’s truck & chilled till he got off. After we went to Target, got a good deal on Polaroid Film! It’s now $13+ but I got it for $7. That’s whasssup :) Filled out a survey because this fool hooked it up & he made me, then we all went to my casa.

I arrived at my casa not knowing I didn’t have the house key, so we just waited. Then my parents arrived w/ my cousin Rachel. Thea & Daryl came through. Then, we, Busted out Apples to Apples & Dirty Minds. This is when the fun part happens. For Apples to Apples, kuya Jr was being all technical and shit. HAHA! Then for Dirty Minds, we played boys vs. girls. Then all of a sudden, my mom hops on the game though! HAHA. I was like, Mom, I am a 4 letter word that ends in u-n-t. She was like, “OHH, OF COURSE, CUNT! And everyone busted out laughing! HAHA. Tell me why, when I asked Maverick that question, he was like DICK! HAHAHA! Then I did another one. I asked my mom another one and this one was, “I am referred to as a female and I end in i-t-c-h. She goes, BITCH! Hahaha, hella fuckin funny. OMG. Then hella other shit popped up, “Da big poosey” “MANDINGO” Hella fun ass night. When Rachel cut out, everyone else cutt out. But damn, that night was definitely a night to remember! I’m surprised NO ALCOHOL was involved. Usually, we stay having alcohol to a kick it! Man, I love you guys!

Omg, finally Logan is bringing back Halo Halo. It’s been a while since I performed in the Little Theatre. Brings back so much memories when I was in Show Choir <3 I do miss that choir and the people in it. Anywho, our dress rehearsal went alright. There are alot of improvements we need to work out as a crew but overall, it was worth it all. I FINALLY got to hang out with my baby sisters, Mau & Anna and my broseph Russell. Let me tell you, I miss them so much. I love their company I wish I had the time to be around them more but college has been taking my life away. But from now on, (& I know I keep saying this) I will try harder to make the effort into seeing them. So, this is how it went down. Did our rehearsal, went to Target, ate at Wingstop, vented about our inner emotions about some shit, informed each other on everything that we missed and the conversations goes on. Theres nothing that can’t go wrong when I’m with Mau & Anna. They are the bestest! I miss them so much. You don’t even know. As of now, I just got home, and I’m ready to knock out. Performance is tomorrow, WISH ME LUCK :D

I am finally catchin’ up with my friends :) It feels good how I’m slowly gettin’ my social life back! I gotta admit, I was pretty anti-social for the past year when it came to my friends. I was always busy when it came to homework, OK!DK, family events, etc. Friends asked to kick it & I would always have to reject them due to previous engagements -_- Now, friends don’t even ask because they know what my answer would be. Now, I’m taking a stand! Although, I should of started taking the time for friends long ago, I’m officially taking the time to gain the time that I’ve lost with them. Today felt good! :] I hanged out with Chanfong & Ivan today; my sophomore Chemistry brothers! Its amazing how you don’t see each other for so long but when you’re with each other, it just feels like yesterday you were with’em. That’s when you know they are the type of friends you need to keep. We walked around the mall gettin’ apps for Chanfong, sat in the Food Court for an hour in a half talkin’ about random ass shit. Saw Arielle & kicked it with her for a while. Went to our cars & saw Kevin & these 2 other dudes (totally forgot their names) then chilled in my car for a good hour. I’m glad I had the chance to catch up with them :) I miss their company completely :] We’re plannin another kick it date so whoever wants to come, hit me upp. (:

I have finally realized that I threw my social life away without myself knowing it… I always had a thought in the back in my mind, justifying that, oh everyones busy, they are focusing on school, that they don’t have time to hang out, they wouldn’t want to hang out with me, etc. Thats where I was wrong… People make time for other people. Its a matter of time & effort. I lacked that time & effort & I blame myself. I gotta be honest with you, there are days where I’m completely busy & there are days where I’m not even busy. I’ve been putting aside my friends & thats not fair to them. By now, I think they wouldn’t even mind because its practically been a year since I’ve hanged out with them but no, I am not going to allow that to happen again. I am terribly sorry :( I know many of you asked to hang out with me through the year & I was just so busy with school, family, OK!DK that I wouldn’t want to be overwhelmed :( I have made a conclusion that I will hang out with my friends at least once a week outside of school because If I can manage all the extra activities I have going on now, then I can manage to squeeze time for my friends <3 Time & effort is key. I did not realize until now…

I had a wonderful kick it session with (@Kevin) today! :) We never hanged out in over 2 years. I’m pretty surprised because he actually decided to follow through on it despite the fact that it was soooo last minute & completely random. We had lunch at Pho, had random conversations, went to the Mall to pick up my paycheck but ended up not having it by the time I arrived -___- looked around Pac Sun & Forever21 & drove him home. I didn’t expect the outcome of today because I thought it would have been awkard as hell. But it was better than I expected it :) I’m glad it happend. We need more of these days. (@Kevin), thank you for the goood day :)

I know you already made your decision in deciding what you want for your future & I truly do respect that. But, I just want you to hear me out just because. I may not be experiencing the emotions your feeling but I probably have a thought. Yeah, I know you may not know me & most definately, I don’t know you but I don’t know if you know this, but you do make impacts in peoples life without youself knowing it. Like myself. I never even saw you (Only when I was like what 13 years old when you used to work at Costco & you didn’t even know me at the time) We never even talked on the phone, we never even hanged out as friends or any of that. All we do is facebook each other & text each other. Thats the only connection we have as friends. But believe it or not, don’t take this the wrong way or anything but I don’t even know why I’m sad knowing the fact that your leaving in 2 months. I don’t even know you personally & I have that sadness for someone. That says something about you & I just can’t pinpoint what it is. You may not be happy but it doesn’t mean you have to go on & leave =’( I mean, what happens if your not happy when you go to the P.I? Are you going to leave again? People love you in the place where you are at. Your family.. your friends. I’m not happy in this life in general either… But I make the best of it. I find ways to make me happy. Despite the fact that people treat me like shit, lie to me, disrespect me, put me down in various ways. I don’t have a social life. I turn to this online shit. I barely have friends. I lost them along the way. What I’m trying to say is, make the best of your life even if shit is going wrong for you. It helped me… I hope it’ll help you establish the strength in picking yourself up again when no ones there to help you. But I want you to know, that despite the fact that I don’t even know you. Your last name, your favorite color or anything. I will be here for you to pick yourself up when your helpless. I don’t want you to go but at the same time, I don’t want you to not be happy with life. I just don’t want you giving up when shit goes down for you. But who am I to say all of this. I don’t even know your situation. But I just hope you find that light the shined upon you before because as of now, all that I know is that its dark… I hope you have fun in the Philippines. Just don’t forget me. You know who you are because I’m telling you to read this right now. Hayee :) I hope you have a feel on what kind of person I am…

A quick description of the ceremony; HOT. It was seriously burning hot out there. I have a bad ass tan that totally needs treatment. My boobs & arms especially; bad business. Rachel, Eric, Melanie & Andrew accompanied me to drop off the graduate while my parents came a little later after us. Ceremony was long & I got good ass footage of my sister getting her diploma & such. After the ceremony, it was a bitch going home. Felt like fainting, I was dehydrated, again, bad business.

Arrived at the casa with my family already being there -_- nakakahiya, I know, but it was good that babe was keepin’ them company before we arrived (Shout out to bheb, thanks for helping gettin’ the catered food!:) I never seen that side of my family in such a long time! I miss’em! Family & Friends came over. Had laughs in the garage, attempted to play fuzzy duck, lazor eye, ninja & zoom. Had our grubb on, played poker & had a huge table of it. Took photos of the graduate & also had tons of footage sayin, “Happy Birthday” hehe. As it came night, we started hittin’ the drinks & singin’ kareoke! Note: never give me the mic whenever I’m tispy cos I wont give it back. Lmao. Rino busted with rhymes while Mel busted the beat, chealin rapped = EPIC FAIL. Sang Kareoke with Zack D, Matty Topete, Rino Guana, Michelle Bautista, Melanie Dela Cruz, Christian Tandoc, Anson Yeung, Aaron Orpilla & babe! :) Good shit. My sister was hellla drunk. Hella took double shots of what she calls, “Fatron” HAHAHA. Thanks to Jeannel Marinas & Kuya JC. Party ended 3am. Partyin’ at my house is off the hook. Especially when my mom joins in. (: haaay